Sunday, February 10, 2008
People sit at home in peace and safety complaining, petitioning and demeaning about a war that they believe do not involve them. They think that soldiers blame the government for their suffering, for the deaths of their comrades. Any one who been through NS can tell you otherwise. In war, the soldier care not about the overall agenda of their Corrupt Leaders, they see and care only for the comrades around them, they fight not because they are ordered to but because they see the suffering of the people around them and they fight to help reduce the suffering they see around them. They fight to protect the guy standing next to them. They fight to protect the memories of the loved ones they left at home. Only when you have been in war then you will truely realise the limitations of what every man can do, leaders talks about bringing peace and democracy to others, those are no more then fantasy talk, soldiers fight merely for those they see around them, and it is the soldiers that demand the most respect for every one of them contribute more to humanity than any World Leaders sitting in the comfort of their Office.

Saturday, February 09, 2008



Just some pictures from my december holidays.. Been busy with exams and stuff..

Thursday, November 29, 2007
I'll be self- indulgence and share some fact about myself:

No, I am not interested in anyone at this point, had a few but they all got attached or married(yes, married), or has expressed keen desire to not move to any point beyond being friends with me.

No, I am not a IT expert nor do i have a keen interest in programming, I know enough so i dun have to rely on others to do what i need to do, its out of needs, not interest.

Yes, i like gadgets, but I can live without them, no attachment of any kind to anything i owned, or have any desire to own anything out there, most of the time its just, "It'll be kinda cool to have it", never gotta the "I really want it feeling" yet

No, I'm not smart, i have a average IQ score of about 90 as far as i know.

Yes, i am anti-social, i do not make effort to know or approach someone unless out of need (i.e. work)

Sorry if u find mi talkative, it means i'm comfortable around you. And you can feel happy or disgusted by the fact that, u are one of the very few people i m talkative around.

Yes, i am biased towards people, i will give priority to friends as long as it is not work related.

I really hate LIARS among friends, if u dun want mi there, just say u dun want mi there, dun bother making up excuses or pretend u forgot.

I hate to impose on people when i feel unwelcome.

I am not thick skin enough to go uninvited, nor am i brave enough to ask if u can invite me.

Yes, i hate maths, and yes, i find it easy, and no, i do not know y.

Ya, i dun play lots of sports, cos i only want to play if i am comfortable around the people playing, BUT I really love hiking or exploring new places i never been before (And no, i dun hike much here in uk because i cant afford the weekly transport costs to go hike)

No, I am not Pro-Govt despite being very defensive for them, cannot stand criticism without constructive suggestions, i tend to automatically take up a defensive posture for the one being criticized even if i agreed with the said criticism.

I honor honesty and loyalty above other values, u can be a murderer but if u are honest and loyal i can still be friend with u. U can hate me and i can still work with u

And yes, i lie most of the time, most of what i said are lies.

And if any of you can tell me things about myself it'll be great, cos i keep putting on masks whenever I'm with people till the point that i dunno which is me anymore.

yada yada yada

Ever realized there is this person around you that you think you know who he is, but then you don't really know, this person is seen at those rare moments where, wait, you dun really remember. He takes up a place in the world, always a blank in everyone's memories, filled only when he done something out of the ordinary, but blanked out again there after. He is there but yet invisible and forgotten outside those brief periods of attention grabbing.

A person with average looks, average performance, no excellence in anything merit of ur interest or remembrance.

It will seems the existence of such a person matters not, even if he disappeared off the face of the earth, probably most people wun realize it, not until someone else mentioned it, but who will remember him?

They have no impact on your life, great to have them in ur life at some point, but you cannot remember why was that so. What did he ever do? It's like having him or not makes no difference.

Well, of course you dun, if you realized, then such a person dun exist.


Example Case X.

X is a undergrad. People around him: A, B, C, D, E ....

All is normal:

X sms everyone: Hey, wanna go for dinner?
The rest replied: Ok, sure.

On most other days:

Random person ask Everyone except X: Hey, lets have dinner @ ______
Everyone replied: Ok sure, who else going?
Random replied accordingly..
When everyone met up: Wow, you called everyone(somehow X dun count towards everyone)! Nice. Lets go.

Conversations over Dinner:

X: It'll be great to go YYYY and ZZZZ
Everyone: Sounds great! we can plan to go there sometime.
Later...
B: So we going to YYYY and ZZZZ right?
A: Yup, nice place i heard, I think I remember C (Everything X said is remebered but never linked back to him) said it was great.
B: Sounds good, anyone else you know interested to go?
A: Not that i know of.
B: Ok then, lets go.

Sunday, October 28, 2007
I think I'm becoming a self-centered hypocritical bastard. Dun you think so?

You know what, I cannot believe it myself, i just left a nice happening house warming party to come home and... DO WORK!!!

My lack of socializing recently lead to my drop in alcohol tolerance.. One shot of vodka and I'm high.. or maybe cos i had like 5 glass of wine before that and about 2 cups of cocktails.. but..

Or is it my recent envy for those who had school work from 9 - 5 and go home so exhausted that they can sleep? I am given all my afternoons off for project but i just feel so sick of spending time doing a project in a subject that i have a interest as a hobby but NOT a academic achievement..

Or that i feel really sad nowadays when I'm home and no one ask me out especially on weekends... not that i am craving to go out.. i thought i grew out of such childish thoughts.. but it appears I'm still immature... And i have the anal habit to saying other people are immature...

And I'm becoming a clean freak... I keep complaining my house-mate is dirty and dun clean the stuff after use until sometime later.. but then its just cos i dun like to use the kitchen when its dirty but i want to use the kitchen and i cannot stand the sight of things unwashed.. but i'll get fed up when i keep washing things that i did not use.. i wouldn't mind if someone ask mi to help them with stuff or clean for them cos they need help/busy.. but not 'force' me to do it cos i cannot stand the sight of it.. blah blah blah.. argh.. i guess part of the thing with having my iwn place is the desire to keep it neat and tidy.. i use to just throw the unwashed stuff away in sch halls...

And and.. its kinda weird... but you know what.. one person asked me over supper i bout to have something i like cos i keep saying no.. ( u know who u r).. but then.. now that i really think about it.. its really true.. i dun really have something i really like.. a food that i like to eat.. or a movie i like to watch.. i have lots of shows i dun mind watching or in a whim of a mood i want to see this or that.. or a item that in impulse i want to have but will lose interest in no time.. THE THING is.. everything changes with my thoughts.. i can prefer to have this thing now but in one week i i actually prefer not to have it.. and its precisely this reason why i haven't bother to get attached yet.. cos i never really met anyone i really liked.. i just have lots of people i like for a short while but dun really care about one week later.. or this or that.. how do u expect me to tell you what i like when i dun even know myself? one thing is for sure.. i do seems to be growing a preference for older and mature woman recently.. but they all tend to be attached or married.. but i guess like all things else.. its just gonna be for a short while..

U know what.. I guess it doesn't hurt to be such a bastard.. whats the point in being nice.. i dun get appreciated for it.. more like when i dun do something i get negative response cos of it..

and there u have a hypo-critical run of the mill bastard who is just whining about his totally boring and meaningless life..

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Saturday, September 29, 2007
Visiting Scotland in my first weekend back proved a great way to start the year, the place is great, scenery is beautiful and best of all, its very relaxing and low budget! One down point was my camera memory card breaking down resulting in losses of many great shots, but well, you cant have everything i guess, enjoy...

Thursday, May 03, 2007
Old Chee Bye....
Of Course not...

This Dude sitting here is very innocent one ok...

It Obsessive Compulsive Behavior...

Its a term use to describe a lot of things...

I just crapping...

Be back on 11th June...

Hope everyone doing ok... If not Chang will be back to whack your problems out of ur head!!! Or drown u in alcohol sorrows... or whack problems into you if you too happy... I am Chang.. I like to crap....

Anyway...

I forgot what I wanted to blog about...

Nutter? Seeder? Berryer? Beaner!

Saturday, April 21, 2007
Any idea which era is this song from??

This I know, just Enjoy...