Thursday, November 29, 2007
I'll be self- indulgence and share some fact about myself:

No, I am not interested in anyone at this point, had a few but they all got attached or married(yes, married), or has expressed keen desire to not move to any point beyond being friends with me.

No, I am not a IT expert nor do i have a keen interest in programming, I know enough so i dun have to rely on others to do what i need to do, its out of needs, not interest.

Yes, i like gadgets, but I can live without them, no attachment of any kind to anything i owned, or have any desire to own anything out there, most of the time its just, "It'll be kinda cool to have it", never gotta the "I really want it feeling" yet

No, I'm not smart, i have a average IQ score of about 90 as far as i know.

Yes, i am anti-social, i do not make effort to know or approach someone unless out of need (i.e. work)

Sorry if u find mi talkative, it means i'm comfortable around you. And you can feel happy or disgusted by the fact that, u are one of the very few people i m talkative around.

Yes, i am biased towards people, i will give priority to friends as long as it is not work related.

I really hate LIARS among friends, if u dun want mi there, just say u dun want mi there, dun bother making up excuses or pretend u forgot.

I hate to impose on people when i feel unwelcome.

I am not thick skin enough to go uninvited, nor am i brave enough to ask if u can invite me.

Yes, i hate maths, and yes, i find it easy, and no, i do not know y.

Ya, i dun play lots of sports, cos i only want to play if i am comfortable around the people playing, BUT I really love hiking or exploring new places i never been before (And no, i dun hike much here in uk because i cant afford the weekly transport costs to go hike)

No, I am not Pro-Govt despite being very defensive for them, cannot stand criticism without constructive suggestions, i tend to automatically take up a defensive posture for the one being criticized even if i agreed with the said criticism.

I honor honesty and loyalty above other values, u can be a murderer but if u are honest and loyal i can still be friend with u. U can hate me and i can still work with u

And yes, i lie most of the time, most of what i said are lies.

And if any of you can tell me things about myself it'll be great, cos i keep putting on masks whenever I'm with people till the point that i dunno which is me anymore.

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Ever realized there is this person around you that you think you know who he is, but then you don't really know, this person is seen at those rare moments where, wait, you dun really remember. He takes up a place in the world, always a blank in everyone's memories, filled only when he done something out of the ordinary, but blanked out again there after. He is there but yet invisible and forgotten outside those brief periods of attention grabbing.

A person with average looks, average performance, no excellence in anything merit of ur interest or remembrance.

It will seems the existence of such a person matters not, even if he disappeared off the face of the earth, probably most people wun realize it, not until someone else mentioned it, but who will remember him?

They have no impact on your life, great to have them in ur life at some point, but you cannot remember why was that so. What did he ever do? It's like having him or not makes no difference.

Well, of course you dun, if you realized, then such a person dun exist.


Example Case X.

X is a undergrad. People around him: A, B, C, D, E ....

All is normal:

X sms everyone: Hey, wanna go for dinner?
The rest replied: Ok, sure.

On most other days:

Random person ask Everyone except X: Hey, lets have dinner @ ______
Everyone replied: Ok sure, who else going?
Random replied accordingly..
When everyone met up: Wow, you called everyone(somehow X dun count towards everyone)! Nice. Lets go.

Conversations over Dinner:

X: It'll be great to go YYYY and ZZZZ
Everyone: Sounds great! we can plan to go there sometime.
Later...
B: So we going to YYYY and ZZZZ right?
A: Yup, nice place i heard, I think I remember C (Everything X said is remebered but never linked back to him) said it was great.
B: Sounds good, anyone else you know interested to go?
A: Not that i know of.
B: Ok then, lets go.